My College Experience

College has been on my mind since elementary and it was funny back then because kids said we would have about 100 teachers in college. It was easy to imagine when you didn't think it. They said it so much I started to believe it but I still wanted to experience it. I thought I would get a good paying job and that was the main reason I wanted to go at that time. I was the type of student to listen to  my teacher and do all my homework on time. I never like being in trouble so I made sure I stayed out of it. I did my best to get good grades in each class. My best subjects were reading and writing. To this day I still have really good reading comprehension and I am glad I do. Reading is knowledge as I learned when I used to watch “Reading Rainbow” as a kid. “Reading Rainbow” was a program designed for kids teaching them how important it was to read books. They always highlighted some good books to consider reading. Now of course I couldn’t go out and buy every book they suggested but I wanted to. I had to use the books that was given to me. Now when i read I choose real stories because they always sparked my interest. I can always learn from someone’s mistakes or from their experiences. I have open ears that automatically like to analyze information to keep me learning. You will meet people in this world who are so stubborn that they can’t stand to listen to anyone. People like that miss out on information and succeeding a lot. I’m the type of person that will listen to the same thing a few times and it could be by the same person or a different person. I am humble enough to know that I need direction and I don’t know everything. 

My life is not a bed of roses. I have faced a lot of difficulties and as of right now still looking for stability. I am the youngest sibling and only girl in my immediate family. There were times when I really had to stick up for myself and still not get anywhere. I’m not spoiled I had to do everything for myself otherwise I didn’t get it. My dad was my best friend because we always got along. He was so encouraging and smart. He was my favorite person to spend time with and he would listen to my problems and not blame me for breathing. He is no longer living and I miss him deeply. Now that he’s gone I have no one to confide in or talk to. 

I learned not to trust people’s mouths because I was always given false promises by relatives I was close to. These are the same people that come down hard on you when they feel like you are doing wrong but can’t even see their own messy shadow. My dad was different he always kept his promise with me even when he split from my mom. He always kept in touch with me and I remember that last phone call we had. He was in a hurry to get off the phone so I knew something was up. He didn’t live much longer after that. 

In high school I barely had a pulse because life wasn’t want I wanted. I am so grateful the science teacher gave me a passing grade because I cut his class a lot. It was my last class of the day and I was barely getting sleep at nights. I was so tired and couldn’t wait to be free from classes. I remember it being a rock science class and the teacher was enthused by it but not the rest of the class lol. So yeah we had to sit there and learn about rocks. I couldn’t wait to get home to eat, watch tv and listen to music. This is New York where you have to wait on the city buses and sometimes it be freezing and people would start complaining about the wait. I guess it was a legitimate complain especially the lady that said this is not healthy for Black people’s skin! That got a laugh out of everyone waiting with us. 

After high school came college which was a lot of work coupled with many sleepless nights and going to bed hungry. Most college majors are required to write papers. I was a psychology major and every class there was a paper due sometimes the same week. Most classes have papers/assignments due every month or something like that and then a big final paper due at the end of the term. Along with the papers you write you are giving exams to take as well. So college is for those who are willing to write, read, study and pass exams. In order to do that you need energy, positivity, and stay knowledgeable about your studies. You might need a calendar or reminder for when your projects are due and when you have exams. You are given a syllabus from each professor that details what to expect from each course. It lists dates of exams and assignments due so thats a good thing. 

I wasn’t fortunate enough to get my own place or have an individual room so I had to deal with roommates. Of course I’m not going to say any names but this one girl was the worst. She was wild and inconsiderately coming in at morning hours in which most are getting up for work or class. On top of that she wasn’t kind to me at all so I stayed with her one term. I ended up rooming with a different person and things were a lot better. Still not perfect but better. God has gotten me through all my difficult moments in my life. I am so close to him and that’s where I belong. Life is journey and it’s unpredictable. I had a few jobs before college and after college. I’m still not settled into a career that I find worth keeping. I care about staying healthy and being happy. I have put these things before money. I want a career that I would love so I do plan on writing more and hopefully finding some acting roles. Then I would be happy making a living.